Hey don’t feel like that. Seriously don’t feel like that cause all that matters is that you really,profoundly love her. Sometimes we’re incapable of realising/accepting our feelings at the time. These feelings only expand later and sometimes they even become more intense. Or at least I think so. I wouldn’t for a minute think you’re disrespectful to her. A disrespectful person is someone ignorant in my eyes. Someone who acts all judgemental towards Amy/puts her in his or her mouth only knowing her via the press shit. I’m quite certain you ain’t like that and I’m sure you’ll be worshipipng Ames from now the way she shall be worshipped.